well i have no idea what im supposed to be writing about, i almost feel stupid posting stuff because i have no idea who in the world would be interested in reading about me. im really not that interesting...
i started drawing again, its been well over a year since ive had time or motivation to pick up my sketch book. between throwing together my dream wedding and trying to cope with the loss of my dad, i havent had much motivation for anything. for the first time in a year and a half i think im starting to feel again. dont get me wrong, i feel pain every second of my life but i think im starting to feel happier feelings too...my dad was my biggest fan of my art so drawing again kinda took me back to a time where i was much happier, it makes me think he just might be smiling over my shoulder. in fact, i know he is, somedays thats the only things that gets me by
Hey buddy (in John's voice)! I am glad to read that you are keeping your head up and you are stepping forward. Remember this for something or someone to be lost. You don't know where it or they are. I know that you know where dad is, so he is not lost. Just because you don't see him everyday doesn't mean he is lost. Like you said he was your biggest fan and is smile ans is over whelmed with joy that you are doing what you love. I kinda wanna thing he was upset cause it took you so long to start back. Know that he loves and always will. The key word there is loves (present) You man not be able to speak to him face to face or over the phone, but he is there. He is not lost. So hold your head roll your shoulders back, and keep living your dream with him watching over you.
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